This is the year that I will stop wishing that my reality is different than it is. I will live my life the best that I can with what I’ve got to work with.
I will get back to exercising regularly. I was walking 2-3 miles a day all summer and then I fell off the wagon. My two best friends and I are going to exercise together, 2-3 days a week. This is not about being thin — it is about getting down to a healthy weight and feeling better about myself.
I will stop feeling so insecure about every move I make. All eyes are not on me, every thing I do is not stupid, my friends are not burdened by me and if they were, they would tell me so. I will live my life without second-guessing every detail.
I will knit myself an awesome sweater that fits me now. I will stop putting off making it “until I’m smaller”. I deserve a rockin’ hand-knit sweater now and I’m worth the effort.
This is the year that I will become legally divorced. I will learn to be okay with that.