I participated in “Stream of Consciousness Sunday”, hosted by Fadra of AllThingsFadra.com for the first time last week. The idea is to type for 5 minutes, a brain dump of sorts, and then to publish without editing the writing at all. I really enjoyed it last week and have been looking forward to this quiet 5 minutes all day long. 🙂
It’s been a long day for me. My girls went to spend the night with their dad last night, for the first overnight visit in weeks. I was glad that they were going, because they miss their dad a lot when he doesn’t see them, and I know it’s important to them to spend that time there, but I was nervous too. They clash with him quite a bit, and even more so with his wife, and I never know whether to expect happiness or tears when they come home after a visit.
David & I had the day to ourselves, and in the past, we’ve filled that time by going out to lunch or walking around the park… spending the day lying in bed even. Today, it was odd… like I kept expecting the girls to call, or for their dad to bring them home early, as has happened in recent weeks. We just kind of rattled around in the house, him drawing intermittently, me hanging out laundry, then washing two dishes before drifting back to the computer, but not for long. I had no focus today. None. I’ve gotten so used to the girls being here all the time, that it feels foreign for them to be gone, even for less than 24 hours.
They came home, glad to see us… one happy, one angry at her dad over some injustice. I was grateful to have them home, so I could stop feeling like I had puzzle pieces missing in my head.