Every week I participate in “Stream of Consciousness Sunday”, hosted by Fadra of AllThingsFadra.com. The idea is to type for 5 minutes, a brain dump of sorts, and then to publish without editing the writing at all.
I went on a bit of a tangent today, I suppose… I needed to vent the stress from my mind and put it down in writing, so it seemed perfect for a brain dump.
So far, the bleeding has not shown its’ face again. We are hopeful that things will be okay for the next 7ish months and we can have our baby.
We think it might have been caused by, or exacerbated by, my stress levels. Of course money is always a worry, as is David’s job, Lakin’s medical issues and a variety of other things that we have going on. I am trying to keep my mind on positive things, though that is not always an easy thing to do.
We were gifted this week with a very ugly response from a person whom we thought to be a friend and ally. Apparently, in this person’s mind, there is an unspoken financial level one must reach before they are “allowed” to have a baby, and we broke this rule. Of course, many of us would not exist today if wealth were a requirement for having children… I know that certainly applies to myself, my siblings, and David, as well as this unhappy person who hurt us.
People who hurt, tend to want to hurt other people. I don’t want to hurt anyone, but neither do I want to be judged for the choices that my husband and I make. We’re doing the best we have with what we’ve got, and that’s as good as it gets for now.
Thank you to every one who commented and messaged and twittered good wishes and love and luck! I appreciate every kind word, much more than I can express.