I realized that I have updated various groups and individuals about “how I am doing”, but haven’t updated here on my own blog. Physically, I am doing better. I’m in a fair amount of pain from my third c-section and the uterine/bladder infection, and I developed thrush from the high dosages of antibiotics, but my arsenal of medications helps with all three issues.
Emotionally, I am… okay. I have Lakin, Addah, David & Lee to keep me from getting too close to the edge of the (very attractive) cliff. I cry a lot. I miss my baby more than words could ever say. I try to stay busy during the day but the nights are harder.
I am pumping breastmilk, hoping to establish a milk supply that I can donate to Wake Forest’s Milk Bank. I loved nursing my older girls so very much that I could not bear to let my milk go to waste. I may not be able to feed my Clara, but I can feed someone else’s Clara. It’s hard… much harder than breastfeeding ever was, but it’s something I feel like I have to do.
I can’t thank everyone enough for the outpouring of love and support that everyone has shown our family. I’m sure I have missed some phone calls, text messages and emails/messages… it was not intentional. I love you all.