This Sunday, I’m participating in “Stream of Consciousness Sunday”, hosted by Jana of Jana’s Thinking Place. The idea is to type for 5 minutes, a brain dump of sorts, and then to publish without editing the writing at all. Jana’s suggested prompt this week is “Comparisons/Competition”, and I’m going to run with that.
I try to avoid comparison or competition with anyone, these days. Of course, it’s impossible to avoid entirely, but I’ve found that too much comparing and competing can be poisonous to my mental state.
I struggle the most with comparing my blog to others’ blogs. I’m quite happy with my blog. I like the design, the overall look and feel of this space. I love having a place to express my feelings and share my experiences with whomever might choose to click over here on any given day.
I visit lots of blogs and rarely compare my blog design or content to that of other bloggers. However, I do feel the green monster of jealousy peeking over my shoulder every now and then, when I read posts about the stats of bigger and more popular blogs than mine. Sometimes I long for my blog to blossom overnight into something huge and amazing, a beloved garden spot of dedicated readers.
I can tell you, in all honesty, that I am perfectly happy with the number of visits and page views and comments that I get. I can also tell you, in all honesty, that I would love to be one of those bloggers who receives tens of thousands of hits every day. What an amazing feeling that must be!
Thing is, I imagine it’s also a lot of pressure… and I feel like it might take the fun out of blogging.
It’s a nice thought though. Maybe one day. For now, I must be content to sit tight… and continue blooming where I am planted.