I’ve been sewing diapers for stillborn babies and NICU loss babies, in addition to the knit baby loss blankets, for the hospital where Clara was born. I have joined the team at Teeny Tears, who have a wonderful program in place. They have an easy pattern for teeny diapers, in two sizes to fit babies from 18 to 32 weeks.
These preemies and micropreemies are too tiny to fit into even the smallest commercial diapers, but they still deserve the respect of being dressed beautifully for their final photographs and to be laid to rest, and their parents need to be able to dress their babies without worry. The Teeny Tears program provides two matching diapers to each family – one for the baby and one for the family to keep in a memory box.
Fabric is not in short supply around here. I have many dozen yards of flannel from previous projects – nightgowns for my girls, pillowcases for all of us, sewn prefolds for Clara. I didn’t realize how much I had until I pulled it all out to iron. I can make hundreds of diapers for donation without spending a penny on additional fabric, and that’s exactly what I plan to do.
My goal is to have as many blankets and diapers as possible to donate during the first week of July, in honor of Clara’s birthday. It’s comforting to have projects to keep me busy when the sadness and depression set in, as they so often do. I’m channeling my grief into participation in something bigger than I am, bigger than David and Clara and the girls, and it’s a good feeling to have.